The Battle

Today is Sunday. The boys were up early so not much sleeping in. I have one day before I start chemo. I am trying not to think about it all the time. But today is hard.

I was "trying" to fix my hair for church this morning and became so frustrated. I am not used to having what feels like to me hardly any hair. It wouldn't flat iron so I had to go to the curling iron which I burned my forehead. OUCH!!! So I am a little aggravated with my hair. Probably by the time that I get used to doing it, It will start falling out. Go figure. Just my luck. Oh Well.

Caitlyn woke up with a cough this morning so Shane is staying home with her. I think he knew I wanted to and needed to really go to church this morning. I love that man.

I came down stairs and Shane of course said "You look beautiful!" I didn't feel like it. My head still hurt from burning it and by then I felt like I was all haggard. Connor looked so cute today with his little blazer on so we took a few pictures this morning before we left for church.

Church was really good. They sang one of my favorite songs right now, "Healer" I felt like it was just for me. And of course I sobbed thru the whole thing. But it was what I needed.

Then in the sermon Pastor Ross made a statement that kind of hit home for me in my situation.

He said, "There are no victories without any battles!" So I am looking at cancer as my battle and just on the other side of it is VICTORY!! I am looking forward to that part but first we have to go to battle. So tomorrow I begin mine. Chemotherapy. The first big step to fight my disease.

I am so thankful for all the notes that have been posted on my blog. It has been good, cheap, & therapeutic for me. I have heard from friends and family as well as some across the country that I don't even know that are survivors of this horrible disease and are now cheering me on to the finish line of "My Battle" I look forward to seeing and talking to all of you there.

All my love,

Rachael