Just Believe....And you will See

We seem to be so busy lately. There is so much going on. Trying to get all the Christmas shopping done is fun but time consuming. I love the holidays, especially this year. It always makes most people realize how blessed they really are no matter how bad that year has been.



I had my last fill on the 10th. She was very impressed by how quickly my skin tissue healed from radiation. In only 3 weeks it looked normal. Thank you Jesus. She says she never has tissue heal that quickly and then do a fill that same day. But she did it on me. Yeah!!!! Then I went back 3 days later for the final one on Thursday the 10th. So now she said we could schedule the surgery for the week of February 8th for my reconstructive surgery. She will also be able to do my nipples at the same time. I laughed and said, "Yeah, I haven't seen those in so long!" LOL Crazy the small things in life that make us happy. LOL Then about a month later she will tattoo on the areola. Fun stuff HUH!!!! So I am finally proportional and very full. Much to the delight of my hubby. LOL




I had herceptin on Monday 14th yesterday. I also saw Dr. Lemantani. I told him all of the side affects again and he said apparently my body just will not tolerate the Tamoxifin. Bummer!!! In a way. It is more of a preventative medicine but my body just will not handle it. And there is no alternative meds to take. So like my Grandma Shirley said, "She is healed of cancer in Jesus Name, so why should she have to take anything more." So here we go Grandma, in Jesus Name. It still is kind of scary though. My biggest fear is that it will come back somewhere else. Obviously not my breasts because those are gone but anywhere else would not be good at all. But the good news is I can have a baby if I, I mean we want. LOL Shane says I am totally crazy. So I don't know. We will have to wait and see. I didn't think it would be possible till I was 39 and that would be crazy. Sorry Aunt Carolyn. LOL However, God changed that. So maybe........But at least now it is a possibility. And that makes me feel better about at least having a choice in the whole thing.




Last week on December 8th, a lady whose book I think I mentioned that I read when I was first diagnosed. Her name was Glenda, she lived here in Harrisburg and the book was "Victory thru Breast Cancer". She passed away on the 8th. I didn't know her but only her story. She had been cancer free for almost 20 years. It came back in her sinus' and when they did surgery she bled into her brain, was having seizures and passed away in a hospice. I have never been an overly fearful person about much of anything. But CANCER scares the crap out of me!! I have seen what it can do and does and know I am so blessed for how "easy" my journey was compared to others. Would I be so lucky the next time around? I guess that is where faith steps in and has to take over.




Well our family prayer for the last 3 months or so, really for the last 18 months but ever more fervently the last few months was for us to sell the Jacobs Ridge house by Christmas or the end of the year. The kids have been praying with us also. Chandler asked me the other day, "What happens if it doesn't sell?" I told him it just must not be God's time for us to do so but let's not think that way and have faith that God will sell this house soon. We do have a family who is looking at it for the second time last week. So we are hopeful and very prayerful that this is our Christmas Miracle on its way. The Bible says he knows what we have need of even before we ask. So now we just wait.........In Jesus Name. And Oh What a faith builder for our Boys to see how God really does answer our prayers when we ask. I can't wait to see what He is going to do.



Our next family Christmas Miracle is with my youngest brother Dustin and his wife Yesenia. Dustin several months ago applied to the Secret Service. He has gone thru rigorous interviews, drug tests, a 4 hour lie detector test, family, friends & job interviews, health exams & physical fitness tests. One of the recruiters told him it usually takes 12-24 months before acceptance, but Dustin has prayed that God would open the doors and show him what direction his life is supposed to go and that he would be obedient to walk thru that door. So guess what God did. After only about 4 months, Dustin has been accepted into the Secret Service. Talk about God working fast. He is so excited and we are so proud of him. We will miss them so much when they have to move to D.C. but know that he is in the will of God.



So this week I am going to try and finish Christmas shopping so I won't have to be out there next week with all the procrastinator's. LOL I would rather be home baking. So that is my plan anyway. We shall see how that goes. Tomorrow I have a follow up Radiation appointment, Thursday Chandler's Christmas party & Connor's is on Monday. Baking on Monday with Yessie and maybe Audra. Christmas with Tony on Wednesday, Christmas Eve with Mom, & Christmas Day at Shane's parents. So busy busy busy but loving every minute of just being alive. Sometimes I start to get stressed about everything and I just have to slow down and say to myself, "Does it really matter?" or look at my children and know I am truly a blessed mommy.



All my love,
Rachael